Post Innocence

Summer is flying by as it always does since I became an adult. You would think I would post more, but one thing or another always seems to get in the way. I try to be more relaxed about life than I used to be, and just take things one day at a time or even one hour at a time. So if writing a post doesn't fit into that day, I try not to force it in. I write this blog mostly for relaxation, and it defeats the purpose if I am stressed about it.

One thought that I have been wanting to write about for a while is how I think some people perceive me as a naive or innocent person. I will admit that I grew up pretty sheltered and innocent. But even people who didn't know me as a child seem to think of me that way. Maybe it's because I am a woman, or because I am soft spoken and generally a nice person. Whatever it is, it can be annoying when people treat you like you know nothing about the world.

Since I grew up, I feel like I have learned more than most people how cruel and scary the world can be. But just because I choose not to focus on these aspects of life doesn't mean I am oblivious to them or untouched by them. It is frustrating when people think I have an easy life or that I am too ignorant to understand the hardships they are going through. Let me tell you right now, nothing could be further from the truth. I have been in some of the deepest, darkest holes you could imagine, and I am proud of the fact that I overcame those things and that my eyes are opened because of it. Just because I don't always show it doesn't mean I haven't seen terrible things or felt the strongest emotions.

If I ever act childish it is probably only because I choose to be innocent and happy rather than focus on the negative in life. I see no point in being serious and stressed out all your life. So if you ever meet someone who seems oblivious to life's perils, know that they probably see more, feel more, and know more than you think.